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There are very few things in this world worse than average-ness.
Mediocrity is one of the cruelest curses of man. Of this I am convinced. When you’re not good at something, you work your best at it and get through it but it’s OK to be bad at some things in life. No one can be good at everything. Or should I say, great at everything. You can laugh and shrug off the things you’re not so good at—after all, there are other things you’re good at, and again, no one’s good at everything.
But mediocrity, average-ness, is far, far worse.
Because being “okay” at something, especially something you enjoy, gives you hope. When you’re “okay” or “good” at something, you think if you work hard, you will become “great.” You think people will notice how hard you work, how much you enjoy it, how much time and effort you put into it. And you think this effort will, someday, pay off. It will all be worth it, because you want to be really, really good at this, and you want people to notice, and you think that because you’re “okay” at it you can eventually reach “great” if you just work hard.
This is a lie. No one cares how hard you work if you’re just “okay.” No one cares how much you like something if you’re not great at it. Because there will always be others who are better than you. And when you’re not so good at something, that’s OK because you know you’re not good at it, but when you’re average at something it’s heart-crushing because you want to keep believing that if you work hard enough you will eventually be as good as they are but the truth is you never will be.
And in the end that’s all that matters.
I am the most average person I know, and I will always be average. My heart is not average. My passion is not average. But my performance in all that I do will be. And the worst thing is I’ll continue to work hard and continue to hope and pray that my hard work will pay off because that is the cruel, cruel circle of average-ness. It never ends and your heart will always be broken but all you can do is keep going because that’s all you have. And tomorrow you’ll feel better but you know these truths deep in your heart and things happen and they resurface and then they go away, because it’s all you can do to get by.
But the moments that they surface are, and always will be, one of the most terrible things you will ever feel.
By the way I’m looking at this and all I can think about is the facial anatomy in the picture. I think the back of the head should be bigger. I’m such a freaking artist.